[FF同人翻译] ~My Immortal~ 我不朽的爱人
~My Immortal~
By:天昼之夜影
45-year-old, Ginny sat on her living room couch looking at a family album. Pictures of her, her husband and children littered them. They were so happy then.
*I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won';t leave me alone *
Why did he have to leave her? To die? They had so many memories together; their wedding day, their first-born, it all seemed too surreal.
* These wounds won';t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase *
She remembered when they mourned the death of their old Professor, when her brother and his best friend married, when his night-scares came back, she would comfort with him, celebrate with him, laugh with him, cry with him. But she still couldn’t figure out why he had to go? The whole world depended on him. The one boy who would end it all. He was a brave man. Putting the lives of thousands before him. But he had people who would love him no matter what. And now he can’t enjoy that.
* When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you';d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me *
He was so handsome. He captivated her with just one look of those green eyes; with one kiss her whole body would melt to the floor, with the sound of his voice, sweet and smooth, would take her and suck all of her sanity out. When he died, it took her too. It felt as though she was missing half of her body, her heart. Now Ginny dreams of him at night, laughing with her again.
* You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me *
The pain of finding out of his death still lingered in her heart, mind, soul.
* These wounds won';t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase *
She flipped to the last page. It was a picture of them smiling happily. It had been taken a week before his death, before Lord Voldemort’s return.
Sure, he defeated the Dark Lord. It was all over now. He had been given a plaque for his bravery. That’s it? A plaque? He was now forgotten, and only told as a brave boy who saved the world. But to some, he was more. To Ginny he was life, he was oxygen to her. Tears swelled up in Ginny’s eyes.
* When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you';d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me *
Ginny shook her head. ‘He’s gone.’ She told herself. ‘I’m never going to see him again.’ ‘Yes you are.’ A voice in the back of Ginny’s head told her.
Heaven.
* I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you';re gone
And though you';re still with me
I’ve been alone all along *
Ginny closed her album and sighed, choking back tears. It was useless. She only had memories of him, of them.
* When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you';d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me *
She would never forget him. There is no one who can take his place, feel her pain, love him the same way. She would never forget the way he said her name, how much he loved his children, how much they loved him… how much fun they had…
How perfect they were for each other.
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翻译：
45岁了，Ginny 坐在她自己的沙发上看着她的家庭相册。她的照片，她的丈夫和她的孩子围绕着他们。他们那个时候是有多么的开心。
*我已经受够了待在这里
被我的孩子们的恐惧压住
如果你真的要走
我只希望你离开
因为你的存在还在这里流荡
而且它不会让我孤单*
为什么他会离开她？去选择死亡？他们有那么多的记忆在一起：他们结婚的日子，他们的第一个孩子，一切似乎都像超出现实的。
*这些伤痕看起来不会愈合
但这些痛楚却那么的真实
这里有那么多时间不能抹去的事情*
她记得他们为他们死去的老教授悲伤，当她的哥哥和他最好的朋友结婚，当他的噩梦归来时，她会安慰他，会跟他一起庆祝，跟他一起笑，一起哭。但她还是不知道他为什么必须走？整个世界在依靠着他。一个男孩会解决一切。他是个勇敢的人。把上千万的人命放在他自己的前面。但他不管怎么样都有人爱他。但他现在却享受不到。
*当你哭泣时我会抹去你的眼泪
当你尖叫时我会把你的任何恐惧打掉
而且我回拉着你的手度过这几年的时光
但你一直还会有我的全部*
他是多么的英俊。他只用他那绿色的眼光变迷住了她；只是一个吻就会让她融化到地板上；用他的声音，安详又甜蜜，会把她那些圣贤的感觉全释放出来。当他死去的时候，死亡也把她带走了。就像她也失去了她一半的身体，她的心。现在Ginny 在晚上会梦到他，与她一起笑。
*你以前会迷住我
用你那共振的光
但现在我被你那剩下的气息而束缚
你的脸一支出没我那以前美好的梦
你的声音去赶走我那些圣贤的感觉*
当她发现他死的时候的痛苦会一直在她的心，头脑，灵魂里一直流荡。
*这些伤痕看起来不会愈合
但这些痛楚却那么的真实
这里有那么多时间不能抹去的事情*
她翻到了最后一页，在这张照片上，他们正在高兴的微笑着。是在他死前的一个星期照的，在Lord Voldemont 回来之前。
是，他战胜了Dark Lord。一切都结束了。他的勇敢为他争得了一个瓷片。这就行了吗？一个瓷片？他现在开始被遗忘了，他也只是被说成一个勇敢的男孩救了整个世界。但对别人来说，他不只是这些。对Ginny来说，他以前是生命，他以前对她来说，是氧气。泪珠渐渐得在她眼睛里膨胀。
*当你哭泣时我会抹去你的眼泪
当你尖叫时我会把你的任何恐惧打掉
而且我回拉着你的手度过这几年的时光
但你一直还会有我的全部*
Ginny摇摇她的头，“他已经走了。”她告诉她自己。“我再也不会见到他了。”“你会的。”Ginny脑后的一个声音这样告诉她。
天堂。
*我一直试着告诉我自己你已经走了
而且尽管你和我在一起
我一直以来都是很孤独*
Ginny合上她的影集，然后叹了一口气，努力咽下她的眼泪。一切都是没用的。她只有那些记忆属于他，他们。
*当你哭泣时我会抹去你的眼泪
当你尖叫时我会把你的任何恐惧打掉
而且我回拉着你的手度过这几年的时光
但你一直还会有我的全部*
她永远不会忘记他。没有一个人可以占据他的位置，体会她的痛苦，一直爱他。她永远不会忘记他说她的名字时的样子，他有多么的爱他的孩子，他们又多么的爱他。。。。。。他们又多么的愉快。。。。。。
他们又彼此的那么完美。
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Translator’s word: 天昼之夜影的这篇文章是很有力量的，我这一翻译就没有向原文那样有味道，而且他在中间还运用了一些英文诗，只有看英文才能感觉到它的韵味。因为我的水平有限，不能翻译得很好，所以请june原谅！谢谢！ :t: :welcome2: :welcome:
