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[color=#8B0000][~*~Dying with You~*~][/color]
The first part is Harry';s point of view and the second part (which i will add later) would be Sirius'; view. :cid27:
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[color=#778899]You were my father.
You helped me, guided me. You loved me as a son, and I loved you as I would have loved my father.
You were my brother.
Because family isn’t defined by blood.
You were my friend.
You made me laugh, you let me cry... you understood, Sirius. You were the only one who did...
You were my family.
And I loved you. d#amn you! Why did you have to go, Sirius!? Why did you have to die!!??
And as I see you fall through the veil every night in my dreams, your death is replayed, over and over, as if it were recorded on a muggle video tape, the scene rewinding and playing in my brain endlessly... mercilessly...
I never knew what it was like to have a family... to love, to be loved. I would sit in my room for hours on end when I was younger, staring at the ceiling with watery eyes, trying to imagine what my mum and dad were like... wondering if my life would have been different if it weren’t for their deaths. Or if it would be the same.
I always wondered, especially, what a father would be like. To be loved and cared for, to be proud of... to want to grow up just like him, do just what he does.
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I remember parent-teacher conferences, where the kids brought in their parents to meet the professors of the school.
I remember, also, being the only child in the class without my family. I would stare around at my peers as they pointed to drawings they did on the wall, their parent’s faces lighting up with pride as they hugged their child, giving them words of comfort and love I would never understand.
Because, in truth, I was a zombie: a kid who has never been loved. Without love, there IS no child. There is just a corpse... a body that just functions, only hoping for the time of day when they could finally rest upon their bed and shut their eyes, hoping they would wake up tomorrow... hoping it was all just a terrible dream. Maybe, just maybe, one morning I would wake up and have my parents come home for me...
But no. I didn’t have a family... I was the boy with the taped up glasses, with the clothes that were three sizes too big, and with the hair that would never brush down. I was the poor, bullied boy that was teased, hated, unloved. But I didn’t care about that. I was used to pain and sorrow.
And then I met you, Sirius. I met you, and I learned what it was like to have a family. I never thought I would be lucky enough, but my luck ran out.
And it was surprising how quick I took to you. I would give up my life for you, Sirius. I would have that day if Professor Lupin didn’t hold me back. I would have jumped in the veil right after you... and sometimes, I wish I would have.
I never saw you much after my third year... only in the letters mostly. There was a time or two in my 4th year, but that was all. You were always on the run, and I was always worrying. After all those long years in Azkaban, you stood strong.
But I knew it was going to work out. I knew you were going to be free, one day, and so would I. And we would be happy... and my dreams would come true. I knew they would... it wasn’t a dream.
And because of this, I woke up every morning. Because of this, I held on to that wand when I was dueling Voldemort. Knowing that there was a future, knowing that you were in it... I conquered all obstacles, even with Voldemort standing in front of me. I did it for you.
You died a life where you deserved so much more... you lived with pain that I never knew, far more terrible than I can even begin to imagine, even with all I’ve been through. You were my light of hope, Sirius.
And now that light has been put out.
You’re gone... I can’t believe it, you’re gone. If only I didn’t STUPIDLY forget that d#amn mirror you gave me to contact you, YOU’D PROBABLY STILL BE ALIVE!! Tears now come to my eyes unwillingly, the pain unbearable. I can’t stay strong... I can’t.
If only I wouldn’t have lost my head and flew off to save you... if only I would have stayed, thought through it... if only I wouldn’t’ve gone! You would still be here!
You once told me we would live together, Sirius... you once said that you would get a house, and that I could live with you. You’re a liar... you never kept to your word. It never happened... it never can happen now.
And it’s all my d#amn fault. It’s ALL MY FAULT!
I can’t stand it... as I sit in my bedroom at Number 4, I am sure I’m going to go crazy. How can they lock me in here with my thoughts...? I can’t live on knowing that you’re gone. I’m going to go crazy... I’ll die with the heartbreak, I swear I will.
But maybe that’s what I want. To die... to be with you.
It would be so easy. I could just point the wand to myself, say a few simple words...
And as I look at my wand on my desk, it seems so appealing. So beautiful. All my pain could end... I’d never have to see another nightmare again. I would never have to worry about facing Voldemort, or that d#amn prophecy. I’d be able to see you. I’d be able to finally live with you, Sirius... I’d be finally able to have peace.
But... no. You would not want me to, would you? Dad would never approve, either... I know that without even knowing the man. And mum. She gave up her life for me... she gave me a chance.
I won’t let you down, Sirius. I will live... I will take the chance my mother gave me and I WILL kill Voldemort. I don’t know when, and I have no idea how... but it WILL happen. Your death WILL be avenged! I don’t care if it kills me, which it probably will.
I care for nothing anymore.
You died for me Sirius....
You died for my mum, dad.
Well, now it’s my turn.
I’ll die for you.[/color]

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hehe~~~~~ nicely done!~~~~~~~

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wonderful!

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Did you write that?? And when will you update Sirius'; view??? Cool~~

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I think it is the second time u asked me if i had wrote it myself...
*sighs*
am i not trustful or something?

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[quote][b]下面引用由[u]天咒之夜影[/u]在 [i]2004/05/10 03:33am[/i] 发表的内容：[/b]
I think it is the second time u asked me if i had wrote it myself...
*sighs*
am i not trustful or something?
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no, because your article are so good, she';s just wondering about it...
hehe~~~~ don';t worry~~~~~~~

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If you wrote it by yourself, please add [原创] in front of your title, so that I know you wrote it, and I can give you a 精华~~^_^
Because we like [原创], especially in FF.
Since you wrote it by yourself, I will give you a 精华 now~~ ^_^
Thank you so much!!!

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Well i should thank you! Haha...

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No problem~~^_^

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WOW!!!!