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樱。 2006-4-7 12:14 AM

四月。以及四月的Kurt Cobain。

四月到了。痛楚与愉悦的月份。9b%Ih_]JP \
没想到这么快就一年了，安。我的三年二班。
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(`5I&n7lG4lfS 4月5日。Kurt Cobain死去十二年。
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4月5日是清明节。我手心竟然有点疼痛起来了。那么远的十二年。如果他还活着的话，他已经是39岁的男人了。39岁，听起来还是那样地年轻。然而他却把自己毁灭在1994年。[/color]
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[color=Red]我说不上爱他。但是当我盯着他深邃的瞳仁，听他咛唱的时候。一时之间爱他爱得不可自拔。我无法挣脱开那些音符和嗓音的纠缠。就好像没有理由地爱着every little thing和Tori Amos一般。被她们的音乐和嗓音所吸引，以致掉入深渊。[/color] j b6Jh8x1`B&e$w
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L6[x nC/K.y^ For example, when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begin, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun.
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On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know! ~Sm)OrOBB
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I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.
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I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much, I guess. ;g:B-z`Q4SPlW

uI I*y(E1@H|j4@,G C Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away. XrF~l&R'B
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Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar.
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这是一个饱经沧桑的傻子发出的声音，他其实更愿做个柔弱而孩子气的诉苦人。这张条子应该很容易理解。所有的警告都来自于这些年来的‘朋克摇滚101’，自从我第一次介入那包含着独立性、应当称为道德原则的东西之后，你们团结一致的拥戴已证明是非常真实的。我已经好多年都不能从听音乐，写音乐以及读和写东西中感到激奋了。对于这些事我感到了一种难以形诸文字的负罪感。比如说，但我们来到后台，灯火熄灭，人们狂躁的咆哮响起，这一切对我的影响就远不如对Freddy Mercury（“QUEEN”乐队主唱，1991年因艾滋病辞世。）影响那么大，，他似乎喜欢而且把玩那些从人群中而来的爱与赞美——那正是我赞赏与嫉妒的一切。1zD~hO%w
事实上我无法欺骗你们，无法欺骗你们中的任何一人。那对你对我都不公平。我能想起的最大罪恶便是欺骗人们，装模作样，做出一副我100%地快乐的样子。
t PAD1Y2`Ie 有时候我似乎应当在出场之前有台打卡机。我尽了我全部的力量去喜欢这一切，我的确也喜欢。但这还不够。我喜欢这一事实，即我和我们乐队感染和款待了不少人。我太敏感了。我必须清度麻醉才能重获我在孩提时代曾有过的热情。在我们最后的三次巡演中，我对所结识的所有的人和我们音乐的歌迷都有了更多的欣赏，但我还是无法克服我对每个人都抱有挫折感、负罪感和同情。在我们所有人中都有善意，我就是太爱人们了！爱的太多以至于让我感到真的太他妈忧郁，一个略为忧郁的、敏感的、不领情的、双鱼座的耶稣式的人物！xMJN8o7\G9Q
我有一个女神般的妻子，她为理想和打动人而拼命努力，我还有个女儿，她
4_J%a#i8n7r W d6n 让我回忆起我的很多过去，她对那些她遇到的人致以全部的爱和快乐的吻，因为每个人都那么好，而且不会对她有任何伤害。这也让我惊恐万分，以至于我只会瞠目结舌。我没法容忍那种想法，就是弗兰西丝将变成象我这样自我毁灭、走向绝路的摇滚歌手。3Z q)vu+P^8I;^
我快乐的拥有一切，非常快乐。我充满感激。可自打我7岁以来，我总的来说就对人类充满了仇视，仅仅因为人们似乎太过容易地友好相处，而且还会同情，同情！仅仅因为我觉得自己对人们有太多的爱与同情。从我那燃烧而令人欲呕的胃之深处感激你们所有的人，感激你们在过去岁月里所有的来信和关心。我是个太过反常和抑郁的小子！我已经没有任何激情了，所以要记住“与其苟延残喘，不如从容燃烧！”'N#s2wM]
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Frances 和 Courtney, 我会伴你们到老 Courtney 请继续前行，为了 Frances ，为了她的生活.我爱你.
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樱。 2006-4-7 12:41 AM

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灭灭 2006-4-7 04:57 PM

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伊小溪 2006-4-7 06:48 PM

歌曲震撼空前。
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不仅仅是遗书，是忆述，更是艺术。
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Annette 2006-4-7 07:01 PM

很高兴看到他的遗书里充满了爱意

Snowdown 2006-4-9 08:07 PM

突然想起海子的绝笔诗：“面朝大海，春暖花开”。我不知道，他们有没有见到他们想见的那片海。。。

紫儿 2006-4-21 09:10 PM

原以为上了大学的那个四月一定会将自己的悲伤与思念在他忌日那天发泄出来，有了时间和心情悼念的四月。没想到两个平静的日子就这样悄无声息的溜掉了。为了无聊的琐事烦恼，为自己的未来焦虑，竟然忽略了这个曾经被深深藏在心底的人。也许，心里那个影子已经渐渐变的浅淡而模糊了........
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